A letter to my dearest

Dear laopo,

Dear, you are embedded deeply in my heart dear... Every single moment when I am alone, my brain waves will start generating your images and start putting them around inside my brain...

My main purpose of writing you this is that I want you to know that I will support you no matter what choice you make...

I understand the feeling of giving up while studying... I had that feeling before... And you know what I will think about when I had that giving up feeling?? I will think of you... Think of the subway and the chocolate that you purposely bought them for me... You are the supporting pillar of mine throughout my toughest moment in life...

Thus, I really hope that you will just think of my stupid face when you feel stress.. The clown face of mine that successfully carved the smile on the frowning face of yours.. And remember, this is the time that I become the pillar of yours....

Dear...
I will be the pillar so that you can depend on..
I will be the light to bring brightness into your life..
I will be the candle to bring you light in darkness..
I will be the punching bag when you need to vent out you rage..
I will be the pillow where you can lie your tired body on..
I will be the clown to bring joy into your life..
and most important
I will stay alive so that I CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT ME TO DO FOR YOU....

Dear,
I love you dear...
May my strength and perseverance to be with you..
May my joy and love to be with you..
May my light and luck to be with you...

Love you dear...
Good luck in your exam and do not be too stress...


Love,
your stupidest laogong in the world!!~~

Random thoughts XXXIII

It is triple x plus triple I series!!! Hahahaha....

Now in night shift, working in paediatric ward... Listening to all the cries and screaming.... Feeling to have noise induced hearing loss one day....

Sitting in the room, waiting for the arrival of new admission... And at the same time, doing some reading....
And
At this moment, one cute pretty face kept on popping out in my mind, disturbing my flow of thoughts, and also keeping me wide awake... (Dunno whether it is partially due to the coffee I drank hours ago... But normally the effect of coffee won't stay long... Thus, it is due to the person... Hahaha..)



She is like a mischievous elf
Popping in and out of my brain
In the frequency of approximately 1 Hz

Her smile was mischief
Yet stunning...
Like a kid,
Who had just completed her mischievous deed...

Looking at my arm, fingers, dorsal of my palm
And knee and ankle...
Searching for the sign of "tattooing"
Which is her signature doing
Especially when I am sleeping soundly..

She brings joy, and happiness...
She brings laughter and sometimes tears...
She brings in light and warmth...
And the most important part..
She brings in her heart....

She is the one and only one person in this world...
And guess who is this person that is capable enough
To infiltrate my life and soul like mercury??

She,
Is my dearest darling, miss PYL...
And my dearest laopo...

Thanks for the infiltration and all your mischievous deed...
Please do not stop them as these are things that light up my life...
And these are the only thing that makes me feel like living after I started my working life...

Thanks dear for bringing such joy into my life....

Random thoughts

Hi... Long time no c blog....
Today working as night shift...with the mind kept on thinking of my dear....
Jz set one line, taken two blood... Haiz...

First and foremost, sorry for being late writing this post.... Hmm....
Then, there goes my flow of thought... Coming like a stream of water...





Dear, it is said that one couple can be together is either one of them owe the other one of them too much that he or she came to the present life and repay them.... But I prefer the other mode of the story which is where the couple continue loving each other from the past life till now....

My darling... I think my present life is all about you... Everything that gone through, how I met you and how the timing came at the right moment is really all wired up nicely so that we can make it for each other... Like you say, I can't imagine if I know you earlier or later and whether we will still be together....

Like you said earlier on phone, I sometimes do make a lot of mistakes... But there is always one right thing that I did... Which is choosing you as my gf... Never regretted, and never had second thought... And I knew that I really love you and vice versa... Hahahahaha... A bit narcissistic there...

My dear, I had been changing all the while for you... And I am trying to be a much more better person for you... But I can say that you had made me to a better man, and now, I couldnt afford to lose you....


Dear,
I love you... And I missed you all the time...
Muacksssss...

Work hard ya my laopo....

blooooooooooooooood....

Currently posted in a neonatal ward.. been taking blood all day long as there are so many bloods to be taken.. haiz... and got home at 2315H... zzz.... physically tired...

but, your call, my dear... came at the right time... it is when i wanted to hear your voice, to comfort my tired soul... thanks laopo...

you always do things at the right time my dear... i dunno how you did that, but your timing is always right... always....

i had been very moody today... but when i received your message in ward, to ask me to call you, i was so happy that finally i can listen to your voice... your voice can always calm the monster in me without failure... hahahahahaha... because, after talking to you, my mood became so much better... hahahahahaha... thanks dear... from here onwards, i realized something again and yet again... I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU DEAR!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahaha....

p.s. the post and the title is irrelevant... it is that today, i had been taking blood like FOREVER!!~~ hahahahahahahaha...

love you laopo!!~~ muackssss... ;)

An Idiot writing......

hi blog... long time no c... sorry for abandoning you after my last post here... by the way.. i actually had many things to say here...

it all started in the day i met my gal, yuen lee... the process of getting know to her till eventually i got her is actually in my previous post...

she is a tough girl... but she had her cute, and soft sides... she is easily hurt emotionally even though she looks tough...

she is very caring... she cares about her family a lot... can clearly remember on the day that she found out that her brother had an accident, her facial expression went totally depressed... even though she herself is sick... and we actually had plans to go outing that time... what she was thinking is that how is her brother... how is his condition... the concerning look of hers... i really should capture it with my camera... thats the moment she show her love towards family all on her face... in the end, she dump me and went back home.. and i alone went to the outing with others friend... and during that outing, when i saw my friends hugging their gal, i felt the loniness... i really miss her... i really cant live without this gal... it is the same feeling as the time when i am in china WITHOUT her.. and ended up using a lump sum of money to call her back from china...

but despite of all the good of hers, i am the real devil here... i made her felt sad.. and i hurt her feelings today... it is something i promised i will do to her and but didn't... i really break her heart... from the solemn voice of hers through the phone, from the way she answer my question, i sensed despair and disappointment... i am so bad... sometimes i do think that whether i deserve such a good gal to love me anot... haiz... thus, hereby i promise:

1) I WILL NEVER DRINK ALCOHOL UNLESS IT IS A SPECIAL OCCASION BETWEEN YOU AND ME...
2) I WILL EAT HEALTHILY SO THAT I CAN OUTLIVE YOU...
3) I WILL NEVER CHEAT ON YOU...
4) I WILL WORK HARD TOWARDS MY GOAL...
5) I WILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED...
6) I WILL NEVER SCOLD YOU
7) I WILL NEVER RAISED MY VOICE TOWARDS YOU...
8) I WILL NEVER PHYSICALLY ATTACK YOU...
9) I WILL ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISES...
10)I WILL NEVER SAY THE SENTENCE "I WANNA B_ _ _ K _ P WITH YOU"
11)...................

the last one is the promise that i made to you a week ago... still remember that?? i think i should not post that here as i would like it to be personal between you and me....

Dear,
I really cannot live without you dear...
I felt so so so bad when I hurt you... really...
I couldn't focus on my job,
I couldn't think what i am thinking...
You really make a great impact in my life...
and most of all, YOU CHANGE ME!!!

thank you dear...
love you...

From you stupidest laogong in the world...

Random Thoughts XXXI

Today is a big day... why?? when you see my blog, then you will understand why... hahahahaha...

The 30th post, which is the last post marks the new beginning of my blog again.. hahahaha
I seldom write my blog as I used my blog to vent my feelings previously but recently, i had finally found someone to share with, which is my dearest special girl... and thanks to her, many great things happened...

Now, and Finally, I am a Doctor soon as i passed my exam successfully after years of hardships. i would thank my parents as they supported me well and brought me up... and besides that, i would like to thank my girl who supported me morally and stood by me when i needed her most... She cheered me up during my study month even though she was busy with her posting... thanks again dear...

time really flies...
after exam, i went to Penang, Kedah and Perak for food trip with one of my best pal in Uni, Dr. Chua K Y... hahahaha... he had been my roomie for almost 4 years.. hahahahahaha.. ate a whole lotsa great food...

then, I went to Sabah to meet my girl as she was doing her elective there... In that Sabah trip was my best trip in this holiday as i really spend a lotsa precious time with my dear and she also did a great job to plan the trip... It is not the place that makes me feel great but her effort and her company makes me feel warm and happy, and touched... I love you dear...

lastly, i went to China for 12 days... nice enjoyable trip but tiring as we need to carry our luggages to take MRT around the cities... hahahaha... nice experience though.. huhuhu... even though the places in China is damn nice, but the problem is that I left my heart in Malaysia... haiz... Sorry if i offended you XL... hahahaha... I felt the suffering and torturing sensation in me during these 12 days without my dear... hahahahaha... next time, i will never go abroad without my dear because it is really torturing me mentally and financially... hahahahahahaha...

ultimately, i would like to end my post today with:

Dear,

It is fated where
Loving you unconditionally is
One of the reasons for me to live on
Very much like my Sole Purpose of Living on
Earth...
You had my heart and soul
Obtained when i am totally
Unaware

Love you dear...
and Good night...

P.S. need to sleep dy... becoming sotong... and super drowsy.. hahahahahaha... nitez everyone and good night my dear...

Random Thoughts XXX

Wow!!~~ Random thoughts triple X!!~~ the 30th piece of the Random thoughts series... lolz...

This piece is kinda special as this is dedicated to a special person..

Dear,
The first time I came to know you is during a trip to Skytrex... It is where XL brought you and two housemates of you to, have fun...
I never knew that I will end up with you...
But somehow, I felt the chemistry between us is a bit different...
I jz felt like getting to know you better, and jz felt like I wanna make you laugh...
I talked to you a lot, and fooled around...
You told me that, my first impression to you is,"this guy is FUNNY.."
"HAHA, Really funny.." i replied you with a smile on my face.

Then, I still remember dunno when, I asked XL...
"Hey dude, are you tackling her?? She seems nice.."
"LOL... Me?? Tackling her?? you knew who is inside my heart.. I do not have a feeling for her la.."
"Sure bo?? So is she still single and available??"
"Why you ask?? you are interested in her??"
"Kind of..."
"Hmm... you better give up before she turns you down.. she is much more complicated than what you think..."
"How complicated??"
"Hmm... Very complicated..."
That's the line my friend told me... Very complicated.. and that triggered off my curiosity.... I felt like i want to know her deeper and further...

Even though i said I wanna know her deeper, I did not make any actions as I am still in my recovery phase that time.. And XL did make a few food trips to PJ (the place where I am staying and studying right now) with her and friends... And through there, I knew her a bit more... And I made a very important decision at that time...
I GONNA TACKLE HER AND MAKE HER MY SPECIAL ONE!!~~

Then I started to chat with her frequently... text messaging... but I did not tell my friend XL... then one day, while me and XL went out for a movie, I decided to tell him who I am after... without knowing that he knew it already... hahahaha... He was surprised that I made that decision.. BUT then, his advice came,"SHE IS SOMEONE REALLY COMPLICATED... be careful... "

With that in mind, I started my aggressive "attacks" on her... and our first date happened in SKYBAR.. where I told her how I felt for her... The details of our first date will not be revealed here as it is some special moments between me and her.. lolz..

then, our second date happened at Look-Out-Point... and IT WAS ON MY BIRTHDAY!!~~.. had a romantic dinner and also proposed to her...

And on the memorable day of 29th of January, I asked her to be my gf again... She did not want to say yes at first... but, eventually, at 1900 hour, while I jz woke up from my nap, she looked into my sleepy eyes and said,
"I want to be your GF..."
I was shocked and stunned and HAPPY... and I kissed her...

That's my girl... the precious one that i had found recently...

and last but not least,
I LOVE YOU DEAR!!~~